Legal Aid Required for Welfare Claimants

By Samuel Miller

The DWP's six-point plan for dealing with suicidal claimants who have been denied welfare payments is proof that the DWP ministers know that their draconian welfare reforms are killing people. The Tories are at war with the poor and the low waged. Not only are benefit cuts driving people to think of killing themselves, but low wages and welfare sanctions are making people ill, shortening people's lives.

Benefit claimants are being pushed to the brink of suicide—and beyond—and they need more assistance than merely contacting the Samaritans. They urgently need to have their benefits reinstated, and that requires a reversal of the Legal Aid cuts to ensure that their legal and human rights are respected.

As you know, an avalanche of welfare reforms implemented by the Government has resulted in Legal Aid being scrapped for the majority of UK welfare benefits cases. Benefit claimants need a fully funded Legal Aid system in order to properly appeal their cases to Tribunals because their very lives are now at stake.

Jules (the one where i ask for help)

I am now asking for paypal donations so that i can self medicate, achieve electrolysis and live who i should be against NHS denial about my transexual nature. I should not be a man. Ive always felt that. I cant explain, i just know. That should be enough. Hormones on private market? .. i need them... also need electrolysis, that so far no electrolysist has priced up so i dont what to pay or ask for.
Dont take this post lightly . Ive done years of helping people on all sorts of things. I realise now i need help. and its a very hard thing to say, but yes, i do

I will honour your help with my journey

The help me help others on my donate button is ineed that. It helps me, and helps me help others

I dont be begging here. Im not a beggar. I cant see without help i can really get to be me. If you think its begging? you are wrong. Did i say Ten quid each to a target?  NO. not at all. All im doing is ask for help.


UPDATE: a year, currently minimum of £760. i have £106 towards, and would seriously appreciate even minimum amounts. THIS is my future, and that fund will go on NOTHING else. I cant do this alone . will you help me?
UPDATE 2: another £55 . Thanks.
UPDATE 3: Got to £200. min more of £560 needed. And that will virtually sort a years *basics*

UPDATE 4:  I need next order of tablets at start of May and so all contributions welcomed... and if more that next three months donated it will still be spent on the next three months and further after. I'd hope for support so i can get at least a years, but two years is really a need. So that i dont have the inscurity of start stop, which will be a really non effectual way to do this.
UPDATE 5: 25th March : I have just £15 of the approx £250 needed Before end of april, so can order before run out, and this is worrying. If you can help , it all adds up. What good is three months and stop? None.

 Not made up :

And Made up :

And The flip flop flop flop back and forth is exhausting . Hence my asking for your help .

The flip flop ? not just daily...

Okay i was "double denim, hair down, hour and a half make up &nails done " when i was assaulted 6th June '14 or this mayve happened sooner
Yes my foot and ankle still *remember* the assualt as does my knee. 

I was assualted attempting to come out also in 2007. That assault broke my right clavicle and displace the shoulder, and pulled a few muscles. With cuts to my face too. So 7 years before i tried again . I cant wait any longer .

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Just a little on The "I get you" thing

Its strange isnt it that theres intersectionality across many serious and chronic illnesses in terms of symptoms?

Not strange really, cos bodies are all same design, essentially, and theres only so many exhibiting of problems combos at the limit. Interesting to think about.

 The reason i was thinking about it is several people ive spoken to with different illnessess, get some/many same effects.

One example? is Post Exertional Malaise. Another is the mental issue some call Malady. Which is tired and fed up of thinking and dealing with the illnesses.
(I can be worse, like depresession, even clinical depression in some cases)

There are many more. Probably not worth me trying to list. You may know anyway, or you may not. 

This thought chain has arisen as i AM helping someone come to terms with a DX* they have, using my journey path with mine to try to show that post DX is hard, and then understanding the changes although difficult is essential in my humble opinion. Sharing and saying "Me TOO" really does help, more than people realise.

Dealing with the meds too can be an issue, but i shant explore that here.

My way was to look further into my stuff and BE expert patient. That sounds silly. Understanding the dx is important, what it can mean etc. It can help . I'll stop thisas its really saying not a lot, but a lot at the same time.

Its an area worth deeper thought, anyway. This being quite a scratch on the surface.



*Note > Dx= diagnosis for those that dont know reading this. 

My New Mouse

Old mouse died last evening, and i had to replace it. So i have a new mouse.
The old, now dead mouse I LOVED that mouse. I cant Tell you how much, else I'd have to kill you. Lets say when i got it i was exstatic as i got it via a pricing error. Nuff said on that bit.
That ones dead.
The New One? The puter thought it was a KEYBOARD, when i plugged in the usb reciever. Fixed that though.
Anyway, doubts over new mouse, justified, as I told you I loved the other one, and new one is just slightly bigger.
I continue.
New mouse? Has a Speed button on it. That works. Three speeds. Bit kooky that . Also it switches off when machine does.. and to switch on when you switch puter back on ... You do an initial left click. I didnt think it was as funky as last one? It seems to have decieved me. its well funky.
Oh theres more...
Plus its metallic deep red, and rubber side grips. Thems the important bits. But Dont like its click sound.
 Maybe im noticing the click sounds cos the dead one had very very low volume, and this isnt . (from the mouse itself) < THIS, This all is very important sensory information. To someone who loved a mouse that is now dead. Its replacement HAS to prove itself.
 Sounds silly, but it ISNT. Its quite important. Especially with fatigue, these things do matter quite a lot.

But im sure me and new mouse will get along. Now to bury the dead one. 

Okay here it is

Julie, she’s a Man (I nicked that from a song) 
This one doesn’t wanna be that man.

I’m not one that often seeks help for myself.
Imagine if you will a world where you live breathe eat and sleep as one person, but inside you are not that person. Would that be living a lie?
Would the freedom to create an online identity reduce that slightly as you can express and present differently? Is that enough?
Very difficult to explain. I am inside whatever.But presenting that and being that having far too many percieved and experienced barriers .

I was born male. I don’t FEEL male, I FEEL woman, and have for years and years.

We get through various crisis scenarios, even a childhood where all femininity was denied me by an onerous and violent man. So as to arrive in Life as Man to a 49 yr old still lost, still not who they should really be.  That’d be me. I have known for so long. And why haven’t I asked anyone help? There’d be many reasons for that.

Turned down by NHS 3 times. I don’t fit their niche apparently.

Thinking about it I can self medicate. But i cant afford it. Safely I can use 6-8mg daily of Progynova daily. ..And androcur . And there’s electrolysis which seems like another mountain. Too many mountains in fact.

With help though for these costs, as I maintain my own daily/ weekly/ monthly and annual costs from an ESA only income (where a lot of that as much as i can helps other people on many issues) , I could conceive that this would be an extremely good route to take for sanity and wellbeing.  Seeing a thing on telly where even people nearly there condemn me as a not there upset me a lot. The Not Trans enough thing does bite.

But theres environment, people and support.. where 1) not good 2) not good and 3) Where is it? so i leave this blog as it is .

I may have solved Why Earworms Exist...

Some people get reminded of tunes for reasons, and others for no reason at all, but the no reason at all Mustve been triggered by something. Let me develop that further. There may be NO ACCIDENTAL EARWORMS AT ALL.. bear with me.

So the first i was reminded of was Rise, by Public Image Limited, when someone was talking about the only energy that keeps them going was anger. That that was their energy. And if you know the song. Theres words in that repeat: "anger is an energy" , so that was that one.

The second was I was reading about the blusterings and distractions of EU negotiations, when theres issues like the health service/ pensions/ and sick and disabled cuts to funding and benefits going on. The song? Comparing Politicians to children and their games? did you guess? Games Without Frontiers, Peter Gabriel.

And now the third. Seeing the plethora of confusion, bombing of hospitals and civilians in several places, if you read up you'll know where..and that so easily that could end up in some immense catastropy..thoughts many have. An accident could trigger that catastropic imagination into reality. Did you guess the song? 99 Red Balloons by Nena, where the premise of that was Accidental release of weather balloons causing a major crisis point situation.

So when you think hard about why you think of a song. Think , is there a reason a song comes to mind?

I may have solved Why Earworms Exist.

Dont Judge Book by cover.. you never know/ More on Invisible stuff

Tenofovir disoproxil, two 10/500 codydramol, strong b vit compound, folic acid, thiamin, and a fybogel. Done, just the now.
Do you know thats the main daily thing? ...then more codydramol (up to 8 a day total) and ibruprofen, if needed. Thats for the rest of my life, unless they change anything. Deffo the T.D. wont be removed- theres no other meds left in the options, ive had all and i mean all the other options....
That IS a daily forever thing. So that one better not give up eh?

So you think that i'd be pretty used to it and it doesnt cause issues in head by now at least.... youd be wrong , its always a constant . what issues, i cant say, but yeah. Also two/three of the DX's, they play with the head. Yup.

So never judge. Cos it could be very complex inside, and you see NONE of it, unless you know. Even then you might be guessing. 

The One where i got a We're confirming the details we hold on you call..

On a details check, the caller was correct to call, but didnt know that ESA support group doesnt relate to or get income support.. WHICH WAS madness. They said so with that do you also get income support? FFS they should train condition checkers far more than they do.
Also... How often do you use internet, and do you have any social media accounts. NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS
None of the answers were mandatory, it was a justified call, but still, the caller didnt seem to know the questions they were asking, or the questions were badly designed.
I did also say that withheld number even though I know who you are and why you are calling, that i have mentioned to themselves before as a barrier to getting through to some people... and registered with them that my preferred contact with them is now EMAIL. lets see if that sticks.

More stuff and whatever about Invisible Stuff...

Just had one of those pains in my ankle that happen from time to time.. and it made me skake. One of those.
One of those things YOU dont see.
Thats possibly gonna be called Chronic Regional Pain syndrome if it goes on and on, they call it prescribed pain at the moment. As its a result from an assault.
Basically in whole and including knee downwards.
You dont see it.
I barely limp, (most of the time, sometimes i do so more)
I notice different walk but others unless looking ...
cant see.
So I've told you bits before of my invisibles.
And so Thats one of my other invisibles above.

Views On this Govt.

A Domestic Abuse Survivor wrote and asked me to share her concerns, and so without edit, i do so below...


Have we ever been hoodwinked or treated so badly by a government in recent times?

I compare this political era to a miserable, abusive, stifling, frightening, damaging relationship I escaped from in 2006.
I escaped because I could. There were steps in place to help me in my desperation. Housing benefit, refuge, support from CAB
and a mental health team. I did it.

There comes a moment of clarity. A searing realisation of the harm being done. The isolation. The sheer terror. THIS PERSON
(OR GOVT) DO NOT HAVE YOUR BEST INTERESTS AT HEART. In the most sinister way, they convince outsiders
they're doing everything possible and this is 'the right thing to do.' It's not.

Look at what government are doing with help of complicit press/media. They're denying justice for all, destroying Social Security,
housing, benefits for sick/disabled, NHS, social care. They stalk our country deciding who deserves to eat or heat their homes, or even
if they deserve homes at all. They're crippling opposition and changing boundaries to their advantage. They're removing voters
from electoral roll who are most likely to vote for opposition. They're pitting one minority group against another. Democracy?
I don't think so.
I escaped in 2006. Today it would be almost impossible. There's one abuser bigger than all the rest. Our own government.

Poverty Porn is sickeningly blatent...

Four Days ago Trussell Trust said :" ‪#‎BenefitsBritain‬ just turned up unannounced at a foodbank despite being asked not to; we don't support demonising poverty."
This is sign of continual (and aimed to be continued) media trying to assault characters.
The day before Yesterday I saw a Journo/ telly request for People who KNEW anyone overweight or that kept a pet and used a foodbank, to speak to.
Now combined with all the other stuffs we see if thats not deliberate sensationalist bombardment, and poverty shaming/ poverty porn what is?

Try to counter this where ever you can, its insipid filthy media.