The One where I said no, for reasons...

Email in.
A request for assistance on a package of stuffs.
I worked out woulda cost me DVD, time to do it, taxi, three letters, and a couple of bits. Told them.
Them then replied? "Okay, cant do that"< Meaning they wouldnt cover expenses.

Me then? "so if you cant pay that cost, nor can I." 

It was relatively small sum, in some peoples lives they maynt have blinked, nodded and got on with it - but to me it matters, and i cant justify on that.

Not being selfish there, cos if you add up LOTS of occurrences on different things..... can you see? And im under no definition of selfish, not selfish at all.

I woudve had to do a Powerpoint, 
burn to THREE discs actually, and send three places it. So yeah COST. Also woulda needed taxi, and other bits..for another bit of it.

Plus one bit i'd also need new shoes, and to unmothball a suit (not literally, its hung in t'wardrobe) and thats "Not On The Programme"

Can you see why the Costs or nowt decision was made? Im sure you can.

Meeting people ....

Also amazing local man i met yesterday when out with dog. He was stopped, with a stick, and so I asked whether he was OKAY.
The mans name Malcolm. 
Malcolm proceeded to tell me the whole of his health issues and memory problems since he'd had a recent stroke. Without invite or question asked by me, just the are you okay? 
He explained he NEEDED to tell me this in case i met him again, and if at that time he was confused. He Knew I lived very close by to where we met, and I didnt ask him where his address was, but it must be fairly local.
He went as far as telling me the frustrations when people give up talking to him as he loses words, and to him he often cries at these times. He said too that itd been three months and that his brain was working it all out by working and scaffolding around the broken bit(s).
But if I'd not asked him was he okay.. none of that wouldve been talked about by him..
So know I know. I'll keep eye open to see him again and see if he's alright.
We did walk a way together, and he said thanks for listening. He'd forgotten my name, and said he'd say hello next time as he'd link me and dog together.
That was an extraordinary, and random meeting.

The one where i talk abouht tight arsed f*krs

CONTROVERSIAL POSTING RIGHT HERE: 


Heres a thing 
when you have little spare cash, 

on your own, 

and visit a discount shelf/section/trolley/offer...

 When you see a Cunt sweeping that shelf section or trolley 

muttering yup, freezer, yup , yup. ooh yes, and ahh that!
.. and buying almost whole shelf or section or trolley and you cant get close, as they and a possible entourage are blocking you to get one /two items you want? 

...and they buy a shit load more than you can buy in one purchase. Thems the tight arsed fukrs i dont like. Cos in their lives they dont help people, or give a shit about others. Thats my best guess on people like that.

That one where people try to... whatever it is called...

Im feeling a bit that yesterday, as like many days, i was like a watered-down version that is further diluted to maintain social acceptance. I dont know how to break that.

And being told i dont go enuf places or do enuf stuff... and allsorts of  stuff like that, from two people irl and that You are Becoming a Hermit.. that bit stuck in my head. What am i supposed to do?

Safety first... and yep. They said too i didnt recognise danger , and put myself in spots that are really dangerous? so on one hand Dont do, and on the other hand Do do stuff. Totally perplexing.

As i DO recognise danger. Often. So this is now an AAAAAARGH in my head. And shouldnt be.

Oh and a tiny thing, that sticks out too... I fixed a lappy when i was out, and gave several advice things too... but there were, sounds silly this bit, 19 credits on the jukebox, unused, where several had stored them up for later use as if they owned the jukebox. I assumed that me putting a quid in to select 4 would be alright, leaving still 19 credits on the machine. I was shouted down from doing it , at quite close range too,BEFORE i even got the quid in the machine.  I dont think thats normal, do you? Maybe i have the wrong view and everyone's right that i should just fit in and kowtow to lowest common denominators etc. But i am not sure they actually are.

45p a min to DWP? The one where i say "SOD IT" and recommend Virgin PAYG

Im gonna recommend VIRGIN Mobile PAYG. Sod what you think of Branson et cronies.

This is cos you get starter tariff first, 
then you switch to Big Talk Tariff. 
Then top up 15quid. 
And 15 each month after if you want the benefits to continue.


Super useful. as you get 3000 texts, unlimited calls to landlines, any starting with 01, 02, 03. Useful docs/hospitals/dwp etc, see? Plus 120 minutes to UK mobiles. 

So all this 45p a minute to DWP malarkey can cease with this tariff as its free calls to landlines. 

Adventures in paying for Water

So my reply about something. The draconian collection methods of a utility company prompted this :
" I can pay the bill, not in full, the six month initial is possible
Being on ESA support Group you can understand hopefully that i have a serious illness, and extremely low disposable income.
I would propose that you write cancelling the demand for full amount, cancel any intent of legal action, & accept the offer on original bill.
Also the reminders sent? you will see that last years bill is fully paid , so soft reminders could be reinstated. "

Nasty companies. Nasty some of them .

Their reply?
"We can now only take a payment for the full balance, because we have past the due date for the first half which was due on 1 April 2016. You can still however make a payment and then arrange a payment plan for the remaining balance, this payment plan would start in May 2016.
I trust the information provided will be of assistance to you. "

That makes no sense whatsoever, as they state they can only accept full payment, but then say they can accept *a* payment of less?

I read it and actually said out loud "WTF" in full words, and the dog looked at me funny.

So I replied:
"So you state you can only accept full payment, and then state you can accept a lower payment? which is it? As this is inherently contradictory, and i'm confused. "

And then they stopped talking. with a standard "acknowledgement auto reply" 

So still unclear, as to what to do, and if they continue with this automatically theyll ADD at least £65 quid onto the bill? 

Draconia. Over Water.

It continued though with yes the six months as a conditional WAS acceptable, or even a lower amount, which begs the question as to why initial pursuit was for Years amount?

So i shed £90 in one hit, and theyll sort a fortnightly amount for the rest.
BUT THEY STARTED out wanting The full amount. amazing. Not.

More On Sanctions - Jules Thoughts

So.
I did a thought, about sanctions, much a continuation of existing thoughts that I, and others have.
So here it is.

I Saw a social media plea for Razors, from a foodbank. Nothing strange , you would think. They actually appended their plea with the fact theyd had a yound man attend their place, having had benefits sanctioned for being unshaven.
Here is their message :

So i started thinking, and these were my thoughts:

Where is this young mans advocate? I'd be ripping DWP to pieces over that sanction.

On basis that conditionality supposed to be within clients capabilities and reasonable, the argument would be "Non capability due to means" furthermore, an expose of financial status and that the expectation was unreasonable around clients means.

Likewise the sanctions around non attendances? If client does not have the cash to attend, and the expectation is unreasonably shanks pony?

The sanctions constructs are all based on unreasonableness IMHO, and theres "good reason" rules, that are barely applied.

Its approaching judiciary style, without a court or defence possibility, worse than fines in courts, arbitrary kangaroo court? not even that..

The sanctions leave destitution and penury as resultant, which also IMHO is against the Rights of Individuals under Human Rights act.

This may be the most ive thought on round this subject and actually shared. Ive actually clearly stated my thoughts on one aspect before though that being that to sanction a parent, causing hardship, obviously affects their offspring, and IMHO is tantamount to Child Abuse.

So you can take what i said , dismiss if you wish, or think harder on it, and advocate, help people whenever you can.

I must note here that ive been told this sanction was appealed and overturned, but the fact it happenned in the first place is inexcusable .

The one where being a helpy and supporting is hard...one aspect

Mate was DX yesterday with lung cancer. 

doesnt know yet if treatable, theyre doing more scans, whole body, and head next week 

and specialist friday. 

dont know if small cell, the other, or spread. 

Meantime i got a fucking lurgy, and he wants me to go pub with him a bit later 

as not wanting to be on own. 

I told him this and bug thing , 

he said dont worry about that come... 

My thoughts went 

1) if im up to it 

2) ive got a bug he might catch 

3) im and was  thinking respect wishes and go anyway. 
or dont go cos bugs. and it was  doing my nut in. 

i will probably go. Im waiting a fucking appt re an abcess myself around the renal department. 

All a bit fucking jumbled myself, 

So After all that. yes, i'll probably go. 

Mates only 66 . 

known for 10 yrs

BUT WHAT DO WE TALK ABOUT? or do we just say Yup, yup, Y U P. nod and drink? 

See? 
(if only you could see the thoughts in my head, i try to write them above. I hope you see) 

Fatigue. The beast that hits people with many ills.

The word Asthenia is also used... where something else may sit. 

For what is it when it hits, whats behind it?
I can Identify at least contributors to why i get *whacked out* 7 or 8 at a push. 
Others dont get the DX's that tell them what is causing this loss of energy. 
Mine comes from bowel disease, two things to do with my blood , at least, one of my tablets, and a thing also thats #mh based, and some organ damage. Theres other suspects too. 
But core to that is a chronic infection. 
Where my system, and the main tablet both SLOW ME DOWN, is that the right description? 
Many contributions to it. Add the Seventh of Low appetite leading to low energy too, which is a spin off from three aspects described above. Very complex. But if you look Holistically, theres no way i can bounce around like some can. Now its not been Called Chronic Fatigue Syndrome from any practitioner ive seen, but Im tired almost constan, and exhausted at other times.Far more than someone without these conditions described. 
Some say CFS doesnt exist for these reasons. 
And that it describes the complex interaction of various ills and conditions. But yes the link to infection is a given, and is it the be all and end all that it is from infection? No i dont think it is. I believe CFS is a broad church term, when docs are either too lazy to find root of it or its unknown land for reason.
This doesnt touch at all on muscle wasting or genetic diseases,of a degenertive nature.. thats not in these thoughts, but they too get the CFS label in a lot on instances.

By Me: What would you do?

What would you do
if you lost a glove or a shoe
what would you do
Would you seek
Would your eyes leak
a tear
And think of the year
And why the tear
Would it be for they or
HEY for the reaction you got at home.
And then move on
And on
And if it was not a shoe, or a glove, in an older year
And it was something to you quite dear
Would you have the fear
Or more radically despair
Would you be fixed
And have the bricks
to rebuild
Or would the shoe or glove
Yes that episode
Be the shadow on the current fix
Shadow of fear
And another tear
The learned response.

Some Economics Surrounding Govt inaction on Steel Industry

Dig deeper. The reason Tory govt veto'd higher premium on Chinese Steel... is the key word PROTECTIONISM. and monetarists Hate Protectionism. Higher duty on Chinese steel wouldve part way protected british steel industry. America for instance have over a 100%+ (over 100%) tarriff on it. Ours is 6%. Anyway moving on...
For protectionism is seen by them as state interference, and commonly referred to as state intervention. Not part of their core beliefs. Not in UK Monetarism, anyway. .... protectionism is seen as a tool of stagnation... it isnt, its a tool of anti decay ( a preventative tool) from market interactions.
See where that heads? "The Market rules" . It shouldnt always.
Yet tory voters dont all see this TORY view, yet still vote tory? "why arent we protecting British Stuff" ad infinituum.. but see the key concept here with the steel thing is Protectionism is seen BAD by monetarist core theory of UK Conservative Party> Q.E.D "We'll help those affected" rather than ..*we will protect this industry from unfair competition by taxation route and take a long term view of the benefit of this industry" See? (Tax is Fiscal, not Monetary)

Now you see the difficulty. Tory immutability on Monetarism. To swing them they must be under serious OMG threats to gain minor concessions to their driven belief in the Markets.

This is my view on this. Hope it helps.