Because ...

Where I live theres lots of barriers not least misunderstanding people and those that say "you arent woman" I’m not one that often seeks help for myself. Imagine if you will a world where you live breathe eat and sleep as one person, but inside you are not that person. Would that be living a lie? Would the freedom to create an online identity reduce that slightly as you can express and present differently? Is that enough? Very difficult to explain. I was born male. I don’t FEEL male, I FEEL woman, and have for years and years. We get through various crisis scenarios, even a childhood where all femininity was denied me by an onerous and violent man. So as to arrive in Life as Man to a 48 yr old still lost, still not who they should really be. That’d be me. I have known for so long. And why haven’t I asked anyone help? There’d be many reasons for that. Turned down by NHS 3 times. I don’t fit their niche apparently. Thinking about it I can self medicate. But i cant afford it. Safely I can use 6-8mg daily of Progynova daily. ... And there’s electrolysis which seems like another mountain. Too many mountains in fact. Picture is me two weeks ago on-line DJing some music for a party with my pic showing as me I could do at the time